Reading, learning

I spent part of the night reading about sexual abuse and it's ramifications.

I learned some interesting things:

1) it is not at all unusual for survivors of extensive abuse to have a whole host of physical illnesses and maladies. It is actually quite common.

2) I am not trying to manipulate anyone. I don't know why this surprises me so. But I am definitely not a manipulative person.

3) I am genuine. I'm not playing a role or acting out.

4) I've really done veryvery good all these years, all things considered.

:)