Visiting Eldest in Prison

For the second time, in 18 months, Younglink has had the opportunity to visit and interact with his older Brother. I cringe as I contemplate the fact that my eight year old has to endure "pat-downs" in order to visit. It's both highly wonderful and depressingly sad, simultaneously, to have my family fixed and together.

Eldest is doing okay. He seems more depressed and melancholy than previously. It feels like "home" just to sit next to him, smell him and hold his soft hand. I don't know how other mothers do this...it is emotionally challenging.

I'm exhausted from the eight hour journey and emotional four hours of visiting. I think it be time for bed.