Gameplay, of Relationships

Relationships, those two headed monsters where one person seeks another adult person for strange and mandatory mating rituals....are nothing more than a complicated game. Not "game" in haha, let's have fun, I have nothing better to do...no, rather a per functionary game sometimes necessary and sought after whereby one seeks and entices another for companionship, love and such.

A relationship is a game of strategy, knowing and learning rules, boundaries, preferences, positives, slight manipulation and such....one must vehemently learn all there is to know about the other in order to find the right person. Each relationship is a time-consuming complexity of observation, questioning and, horror of horrors guessing and trying to figure the other person out.

For the Aspie, its also a game of figuring out how much to share about autism and our inner workings and worlds.

It's a terribly risky game....that most of us seek

I wish I had answers or a magic wand so that everyone who wanted a partner, magically received one.

Before I met my Partner, I behaved much like a privet investigator, gathering as much background information as I could. It really took many months before I felt even somewhat comfortable sharing what lives and lurks underneath my surface. It was years before I comprehend, connected and understood Partners needs and behaviors. Years till I felt a comfortable stability and inner and outer security. Even now, I continue to be vigilante....no...astute...no, learning and observing. Interactions and relationships are foreign substances that stymie and confuse. Like everything else, I have to work at maintaining a semblance of a healthy relationship.

I am aware that I am fortunate.

I wish you all the best in your questing.