Getting real tired of this. The pain and uselessness, the inability to do a damn thing...just doesn't seem worth it. I'm not getting anywhere. I don't see how things will ever improve. Sick, hurting body. Foggy, listless, restless mind. I'll never hold down a job. I'm barely able to care for myself, much less the two kids. I'm hot, I'm freezing. Everything continues to hurt, just not as much as yesterday. Might go see the doctor. Futility just grows. I'm not even sure I can articulate my symptoms. Probably another of those times I call and say "I don't feel well." The secretary will ask my symptoms and I say, "I just don't feel well." Naw, I have to give them some concrete answer. Maybe "I hurt everywhere" will work. It's the only solid symptom I can recognize. Everything hurts, just some parts a little less than others.
Feeling pretty down. What's the use? Don't think I can win. Maybe things will get better. I doubt it. I'd tread water if my legs could move a bit. Maybe not.
What's the point? Running up the hill
Down in the dumps
Can't get out even if I try
Enough already
Why even bother
Getting nowhere fast
Nothing sounds good or worthwhile
Just malingering
Everything hurts
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