In my situation...my dad was a store manager. One of his duties was locking up the A&P store for the night. And he often brought five-year old me and my older brother along. So, basically, very bad things happen when the lights start going out, doors start locking and no one else is around. Dad also worked supervising a produce warehouse. I tend to freak out at warehouse-like stores, such as Sams Club and Costco. Same reasons.
There are only a few ways, that I know of, to not fly into panic mode in these situations. One, I can write about it exhaustively, reliving the memory alone. Two, Avoid, Avoid, Avoid the triggering situations. Three, take anti-anxiety meds beforehand and bring another adult with me. Or Four, the method I usually employ, talk it out with my therapist. All methods work, to some degree. The last one has the greatest potential for the most healing. It has something to do with my Dissociative Identity Disorder and addressing specific parts of my psyche. Writing about it can work....I just have to have alone time, be in a safe place and incredibly brave:) Some days, yeah.
Doors shutting, not even locking, just shutting deliberately, seems to be a most reoccurring trigger. Door locking and slamming also rank in there as triggers depending on my mood. That door theme has been very strong for the past few weeks. Have to remember to get working on that one....figuring it out and diffusing.
Anyway, I just wanted to write a little about my PTSD and the triggering events of my day. Writing helps me remember it's a trigger, avoid, medication, talk about it, work it out.
Stay strong:)
Thanks for reading
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