Sunday, November 24, 2013

Buying Clothes and other little mundane dilemmas that drive me batcrap crazy

Woke up with much consternation. LittleGuy needed to get to church and I couldn't find "appropriate" attire to wear. It's winter now, and last years sweatshirts and shirts have been whittled down to a sparse few that are "worthy" and fit "right." Arrrggghhh. I spent fifteen minutes staring at the clothes in the closet, nothing really clicked. I feel that I may have to try and purchase new clothing. Aaaarrrggggghhhhhh.
 All these darn little things that are such Big challenges irk me. A five-year old can probably dress quicker than me. One reason I tend to get most clothes from secondhand stores, is price. I'd hate to buy something that ended up being "wrong", uncomfortable, didn't fit right and didn't feel right, after a few wearings. That's just a waste of good cash. So, if I go to the secondhand store, I'm losing less money if I pick wrong. But there, I have to check for wear and tear and what it feels like and will it fit and can I adjust to a new item. It sounds trivial, simplistic even, but countless hours are spent solving these little problems my Aspie brain cannot grasp easily.
It's like, either way, it's an uphill battle. I can't win, I can only try and take the shortest path. Hate feeling stuck...looking in that closet and having to think so much. Life really should be easier than this. Trying to find a way to make it so.
  Problem #2
 The garage door won't shut. After eyeing the attempts to close, it appears that the problem is within the door itself. Maybe this recent surge of cold weather has jibed something amiss. I'm not sure who to call about this. Who is the new garage door repairman? Is there anything else I should try to fix it? Can I attempt to fix it Without breaking something further or more extensively?
 I hate the unprotectedness, the feel of overexposure...and cold of having that door
stuck open. There is that word again...stuck. Hate feeling stuck, trapped, unable to figure out the correct course of action. 
 There is "floundering" and there is getting oneself trapped between the rock and the surging waves. Floundering doesn't feel so bad.
 Yikes. Just too much today. Racing,racing, avoiding, putting on a helmet and running into walls.
Yesterday was so calm. Today, is obviously, a different day. Sigh



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