Healing a Broken Root Chakra

Being down with the fatigue of Lyme Disease, LD, has its positives. I have been spending hour after hour trying to get my body to talk to me....or maybe I'm just learning to listen.

A multitude of painful sexual abuse memories have surfaced, all dealing with the ages of 3-6 years old. These experiences have had a large impact on my core beliefs and how I portrayed myself to be.

As I remember...so I heal

My body, physically and emotionally, had been heavily damaged. The past few years, I have been physically ill more than I have been well. And they have been rare and unusual ailments. I started off in 2009 with gall bladder surgery (I have a hereditary disposition toward gall bladder disease), followed shortly thereafter by a severe vitamin deficiency that had me bed ridden for a month or two. Then the abrupt emergence of shingles on my face showed up, with the rare and....challenging disease of lichen sclerosis taking over my life for many months and till this day. Still no known cause, no known cure.

Two months ago, I dislocated a small disc in my jaw, irritating my main facial nerve causing extreme pain for about a week. A few weeks later, I could eat and talk normally.

Now, now, now, I deal with my Lyme D which I contracted from a tick bite about a month ago. My main symptoms express as sudden, severe arthritis of the joints, generalized and unremitting fatigue, extreme insomnia that allows me only a few hours of deep slumber a day, periodic headaches, swollen lymph nodes, aching all over and hyper skin sensitive are the most ore eland symptoms.

So I have been exploring my root chakra, the lowest part of my abdomen, searching for answers. Our root chakra keeps us grounded, connected and healthy. Most, if not all my ailments are stationed in my pelvic area.

I listen...I search

Today...I finally started feeling the lower area of my body being warmed by energy and circulation. I had cut off, disowned my body, below the waist. It was a survival mechanism usefull in those younger years because I simply could not handle all the painful physical sensations.

Thoughts, phrases really, arose.

As I spoke aloud...great healing, tables turning, blockages released.

"I believe everything my body feels"

"I trust my body's feelings"

"I listen and honor what my body feels"

Wheels are turning, energy is flowing.....I'm beginning to see dawn breaking

More later...me need rest