My father is dying

Found out this week my dad is in the hospital with double pneumonia and stage four lung cancer. He has an inoperable tennis ball size tumor. The cancer has spread.
I drove two hours to see him yesterday. We talked. I told him I completely forgave him. He acknowledged the incest. He said remorse and regret. He wondered aloud how he could have ever done what he did to me.
He is not long for this earth.
I am completely and utterly exhausted.
Shutdown