It's weird

Like everyday I just become more and more isolated, even if I want to be out. I fail to see any progress. One step forward, three back. I fail to understand this long string of anomalous, bizarre and painful incidents. Do I still have hit me, hurt me written on my forehead? Thought I erased that. No sense. No relief...long long days to any even small relief. Helpless, frustrated, questioning, searching for some small kind of help. Shaking the flashlight, yet still it fails to shine. I'm walking into twisters I can't even see. Falling down circular stairway unable to find a handhold amongst slippery moss sopped bricks. Not sure what the revelation be that will free me from this chain. I don't get it. Can't figure out how to stop it.