The air is incredibly strange, heavy, thick and full of warmth. Everything smells of foreign or forgotten scents. There is an odd openness and deep sense of overexposure. It promises to be days before my body and my autism adjust to this abrupt change of scenery.
Mostly I ponder, which is Aspieslang for processing and analyzing. I have to pull out my old bag of tricks and strategies to help me along. Spring is an old dance with a new partner. Once again, I am not the same person, in the same position or temperament that I was but all of six months ago.
My life seems to change, grow in leaps every few months or so. I'm a brand new critter trying to figure out how to prowl.
I think I may be photo/ sun sensitive as my face has broken out into a horrendous, rash the past couple of days. This may be due to my medication. I will be discussing this troubling symptom with my doctor later this week as even minimal sun exposure lights my face up in an unpleasant bumpy condition with deep red discoloration.
I slowly adjust when my external world transforms. I have to take little steps each day and reorientate to my environment. Today, it was brief forays into the yard and this whole open window, strange air thingy. Tomorrow it is another step or two.
As an aside, I am up at midnight spending a couple of hours cooking cabbage rolls. My recent dietary changes have left me mighty hungry and quite willing to spend my late night hours securing vittles.
Sleep well. Be good to yourself. Allow others to help you, as much as you help them.
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