Friday, October 4, 2013

Doing better, calmin down

Feeling a little less stressed. Hung out with therapist recently. Only to panic from the newest memory flashbacks. Managing to keep them at bay. I was smart enough to call and schedule another, sooner, therapy appointment for Monday. My flashbacks and memories only abate when shared. So I know that help is near... Not far and distant.


 LittleGuys concussion seems completely healed! Yeah!!! His energy feels all back to normal, as is his behavior!! I'm one very happy momma:) I've been spending more quality time with him. We playfully do homework for about an hour each day. I'm teaching him cursive, which challenges him. He has little faith and confidence in handwriting, so I make sure to be patient and full of raise for his 100% efforts! He tries really hard. It's hard to write right handed when you are a born lefty (born without a left hand). LittleGuy is quite, quite remarkable!
 On a similar note, very proud of my Eldest! He has gotten through his first month of college,  no small feat. His grades are excellent and he as even managed to figure out how to get himself to and from the shool, thirty miles away. He has matured and grown so fabulously:)
 Partner and I are working more smoothly together. LittleGuys challenges at school require Partner and I to communicate, brainstorm and meet regularly with his teachers. We think alike and have both been instrumental, hands-on parents.
I'm still pretty tired. Not enough sleep. Can't figure if it's Lyme, memories, stress or some sort of convoluted combo. I continue to sleep and rest whenever possible.
Home life continues to have many demands, but they are kinda more manageable.
Working on forgiveness and letting go. I continue to have exfriends watching for me, then turning and hiding so they don't run in to me. I figure it is what it is. Trying not to feel like a leper or rejected. Just figure they got issues. Their loss. Forgive them for being idiots. Forgive myself for whatever little mistake I made that made them leave. They said the word "friend" but meant it in a temporary, non true sense.
It'd be nice if we all used the same dictionary...but we don't.
Zero time for arting, this week. Hoping next week will be better.
Feeling hopeful. Optimistic. Just wanted to share:) Be well



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