It's been a longstanding problem, me and my neck. I can look back over ten years and now see the weakness and dysfunction on the one side around the aforementioned discs.
Had the MRI last week. It can be a bit scary due to the vibrating, noisy table. I had earphones on with music from the eighties, then realized the 80s wasn't so great, so I had it switched to modern. I found comfort in memories, touch memories of either a hug from a friend or the warmth of a hand. I didn't find a calm scene or soothing words I had heard to be of any use...I need a tactile memory for calm and relief. Just found that really interesting.
Acupuncture helped tremendously, for a few days. If I'd had the foresight I would have scheduled another appointment toot sweet.
I'm anxiously awaiting the call from the neurosurgeons office to get an appointment. He be the man to explain what's going on and options for fixing it. Until then, I'm staying as calm and relaxed as possible, realizing whatever is to be, is to be. I needent worry or fear, this is just my path.
I have figured out that my injury/ illness is not my fault. I did nothing wrong nor did I do anything to bring it on. It simply is what it is. Therapy Has been working wonders.
My family has been quite supportive. I am grateful for their love and support. My friends have been stellar....a couple life-savers among them.
I had to cancel a proposed talk on autism that I was looking forward to. My neck just isn't assured of feeling well enough to talk or gesture. I'm bummed about that. I debated it with intensity and regret, but I just have zero guarantee I would be well enough. Hopefully, the opportunity will present itself again when I am well.
My Eldest is doing very well!! I am so happy to see him in my house, to smell him, to hug him and sit for hours holding his hand:) He is adjusting with relative ease.
My little guy is full of Spring energy. Poor guy has been stuck indoors most of the week due to rainy,cold weather.
I've been coloring. It's actually kinda new as I rarely, if ever, colored as a child or as an adult. My main medium has always been paint. Now, as I'm confined to the couch and with limited movement, I've been enlisting my Sharpie markers. It is such a stress reliever. I've actually been enjoying myself:)
Well, if you don't hear from me for a bit, maybe I'm busy having surgery and getting better.
Don't give up on me....never give up:)
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